she rules desire, by force of fire, this violent mind

[GEN] Gobble!

Thu, 26 Nov 2009 12:47:33 GMT

Happy turkey day to everyone on the other side of the world, which I believe is most of you? ♥♥♥ Have a good day and eat some turkey for me! :D

[RP]

Mon, 23 Nov 2009 23:02:58 GMT

What do you do when the fun is gone?

[RP] rpwrimo

Sun, 22 Nov 2009 23:56:06 GMT

35495 / 30000

I... did not expect to actually complete this, this month. It's a good job my BFF is as inspiring as she is. And I've definitely forgotten to add some tags from RoS/OUAD but the thought of going back and adding kind of horrifies me. I'll keep it up until the 30th and see how much I've got.

EDIT: 22,871 is from 2 PSLs which I've done in about... a week I believe. I'm kind of impressed with myself.

[GEN/RP]

Sun, 22 Nov 2009 15:26:32 GMT

So, this morning I was woken up by my dad being scared and thinking he was having a heart attack basically. I woke up 'Steph, get out of bed, you need to take me to the hospital.' Bit scary as beyond that he wasn't very forthcoming with information because he was having trouble breathing. My mum was down south visiting my aunt and so a few hours away. It turned out not to be a heart attack or anything to do with his heart, luckily. They think it's a stomach ulcer though my dad thinks otherwise. It was still kind of scary. He got saw quickly and had an ECG? and then we had to wait for a while.

It's just so much is piling on at once. Little things which are slowly adding up to big things. Even without this I'm emotionally wobbly right now. I'm just waiting for another thing to be added on. Usually RP is my escape but that isn't helping. In fact I'm dreading it. I look at things I have to tag and nothing is coming. Nothing wants to come. It's more than just this thing with dad or family stuff. It was before this and it's being going on for months. For a long time I've been kind of... numb. I take a lot of things in my stride but the past few months have been emotionally hard for me and really I'm not sure why. It isn't like I've been through much but... I don't even known. It's just been hard.

Hopefully the end of that is here soon though. I have tags I should do but... I just can't face that right now.

[RP]

Thu, 19 Nov 2009 21:07:11 GMT

Just looking at the f-list pisses me off.

[RP] rpwrimo

Mon, 09 Nov 2009 18:51:57 GMT

9835 / 30000

[GEN] Oh, dear lord!

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 16:24:39 GMT

hehe.

[NANO]

Wed, 28 Oct 2009 18:22:32 GMT

I think I'm going to try nano this year, again. I don't know. I'm doing rpwrimo thing so.. I don't know. If I did I'd hiatus at most games but RoS, I can't really hiatus there.

[RP] wishedmod

Thu, 15 Oct 2009 21:26:48 GMT

I play Graham Montague (dutybound) at wishedmod and he needs a little brother (and a sister but that's by the by) who is going to end up being a Death Eater (whether by choice or because he's forced into that) so we can have family troubles and drama. :D

Also, wished is just cool! Everyone is very friendly and the mods are great so you should join even if you're not bringing in Gray's brother. Though you should bring in Gray's brother because it'll be fun.

[RP] onceuponamodly

Sat, 10 Oct 2009 19:20:56 GMT

Sofia Sanchez spreadsjoy (24, chicago)

→ co-workers/business partners; Ever After is a merging off four different companies, her fellow partners would be great in the game.
→ cousins; from both her mum and dad's side. Her mum has one sister (Rosa) who lives in New Orleans. This is where Sofia gained her love of big families and craziness really.

David Grey readsall (26, chicago)

→ siblings; He has a younger sibling and an older sibling.
→ co-workers; David works as a teacher at Wheaton High in Chicago, some fellow teachers would be awesome!

Cal Harwood daddy_bear (26, atlanta)

→ musicians; Cal and Gemma own a label which is based in Atlanta however Cal gets around a lot and likes to go to open mic nights or unsigned nights. He likes musicians who are in it for the music and not the fame.

Lucy O'Connor oflove (40, new york)

→ bff/friends; Lucy really could do with some friends! There are no older women in NYC and it'd be great to have someone for her. It could be tied in with one of the other families also! Such as the Prescott's, a lot of possibility of drama with those girls.

Pippa Saunders withwildhorses (20, LA)

→ love interest; I think a city boy would be fun, someone who has possibly never been near a farm or anything like that. I would like to see them eventually get married. Pippa is waiting for marriage to have sex which factors in to it. PB: Henry Cavill would make me happy!

Bethany Forrester onlyinthedark (17, chicago)

→ BFF? None really needed actually.

Aidan Williams onlyinthedark (27, atlanta)

→ BFF?

Thom Cooper notmale (20, NYC)

→ half-sister/BFF their dad slept around a lot and oddly enough the fact that they have different mothers has never been an issue between the two girls. They bonded fairly instantly and have been BFF's since. Close in age.
→ half-brother same dad, different mother. age up to player and relationship to be discussed. Possible he doesn't like that his dad messed around? his mother was broken up by it? I think it could be interesting.
→ love interest someone upperclass would be kind of hilarious because she would have no idea how to act.

Liam Ansboro wolfonfire (22, NYC)

→ co-workers some fellow firefighter would be kind of awesome!

Victoria Harrison temptingly (18, NYC)

→ brother unknowningly only half-siblings. Their mum had an affair and Victoria was the product of. They're very close due to their parents indifference and used each other as emotional crutches. He's around 22 and friends with Jeremy Pitt and got the job for Victoria at Montague's. They're also about to go bankrupt which will be a definite shock to the system for the two of them.
→ love interest for AFTER her little...craziness with Jeremy. Any relationship with Victoria could be highly filled with drama due to her "ability" so it could be a lot of fun.

Kenny Sawyer abitdopey (17, NYC)

→ N/A

Amelia Prescott oneofthree (17, NYC)

→ N/A

Rachel Summers srebmemr (24, NYC)

→ siblings they come from an abusive and neglectful household and Rachel tended to act as mother of them all. There are 5 of them in total with Rachel being the oldest. They've all been in and out social care and it's said that a couple had been adopted. She would make sure to keep in touch with everyone and make sure they're all ok.
→ love interest she met him when she was 10 and was quite literally in love instantly. She remembers backwards and for Rachel she was at the END of their relationship before it had even began. It'll be interesting to play out as she knows bits and bobs about him but doesn't want to seem weird or anything.
→ the kid a troublesome teen who Rachel takes under her wing, as much as they dislike the thought of it. They'd likely fight her caring nature, seem like they don't want or need her help but she's patient and persistent. I'd love to see her take them into her home, adopt them maybe.

Coming Soon These are characters I'm looking to apply for... at some point if anyone wants to talk first.

→ Princess Ozma this could go as either my girl being the reincarnation or the guy. I think both would be fun and amusingly really, it would depend on the initially I thought it'd be fun for MY character to be however I think that I'd prefer to play against a guy who turned into a girl periodically. It'd be an amusing relationship I think. Mia Maestro.

→ the librarian lyingingraves siblings! he comes from a hectic and mixed household (three of the NINE kids are adopted) and it'd be awesome to have them in game! Hayden Christensen

→ Gina Torres a definite gold digger. reincarnation is Jennifer North from Valley of the Dolls. She's going to be incapable of falling in love with someone who is wealthy or anything like that. She's going to be a kept woman though I'd love for her to kind of fall for someone who is lower class which causes her to be twitchy. Eva Mendes.

→ Clare Adams moves round a lot and in each town takes up a new identity, a new life, a new character. She moves to (LA?) and someone from one of her past lives catches up with her. ?

→ Mia Dwyer possibly a teacher or something along those lines Alice Braga

→ Bee Maddox lesbian drummer, NYC, coming in for Ryan and her band Quinne Suicide

→ Annabel Richardson richard's wife Cate Blanchett

→ Addison Reed updated evelasque. A divorced twenty something who married her professor at college and has now gained a late teen step-daughter. Rachel McAdams

→ Casey Hart updated wildathart. A divorced twenty something who married her professor at college and has now gained a late teen step-daughter. Katharine McPhee.

→ The Wife upperclass wife, very focused on apperances, workaholic, barrister/judge. she's been having an affair for a while. 40/45. Julia Roberts.

[MEME] Itunes!

Mon, 05 Oct 2009 17:04:00 GMT

How many songs total: 10,295
How many hours or days of music: 27.4 days.
Most recently played: 45 [Acoustic Version] by Shinedown.
Most played: Battlefield by Jordin Sparks.
Most recently added: I Look to You by Whitney Houston [Album]

SONG TITLE
First song: A-OK by Motion City Sountrack
Last song: *#.. by The Dillinger Escape Plan (seriously, that it's what it's called!)

TIME
Shortest song: Foreword by Linkin Park - 0:00.
Longest song: Four Walls by Staind - 33:08

ALBUM
First album: A71022 bu You Me At Six
Last album: The '59 Sound - The Gaslight Anthem

First song that comes up on Shuffle: Blind by Korn.

SEARCH
Death: 115
Life: 317
Love: 433
Hate: 78
You: 1356
Sex: 16

CHARACTERS
Characters I have playlists for ~~and # of songs:~~ (It's all in one playlist ATM.

Sofia Sanchez
Rachel Summers

This proves I need to sort them out because that's all I can figure out atm. >.>

[RP]

Sun, 04 Oct 2009 18:54:03 GMT

At times i go through phases, like I'm sure the majority of players do, in which I find it all a chore. Moments were I just have... no desire to write, there's no inspiration or creativity. It's meant to be fun, right? so why is there always so much pressure? we say that it's not serious and yet we all take it exceedingly seriously. Activity limits, tag time expections and everything else. People expect now, now, now and it's like... you're only "off the hook" when there is actually something going on. We always cite the amusing "srs bsnss" or whatever it is when we talk about someone taking rp to far but really... when you join games you are taking on the responsbility of being around, of being active, of making an effort, of getting to tags near enough every day or keeping up with the day to day general gaming of it all. It isn't just some fun because no matter the game there is responsibility to the game AND your fellow players which means when you do get simple writers block or you just don't feel like tagging you're letting them down in a way.

My basic point is I feel bad right now because I have writer's block, because i have no desire to write really. I have... nothing. I don't want this to become a chore. Roleplaying is a horrifically huge part of my life, it's what keeps me going most of the time. It's sad that RP is one of the only thing I have, but I can't deny that but that leaves with the dilema: do I push the tags out and further deeper cement the chore aspect or do I let people down and give myself sometime?

I'm whining, I know, but I do not want to see this become a chore, I can't because as sad as it is I need this. I really, really do.

[RP]

Tue, 29 Sep 2009 00:03:14 GMT

Useful lists: redheads, blondes and brunettes. Very handy!

[MEME] Sexytiems!

Sat, 26 Sep 2009 10:12:20 GMT

Pick any of my characters (which needs updating :x) and I will answer the following for them:

1. Does your character believe in true love or soul mates? Love at first sight?
2. Are they or have they ever been in love?
3. What are their general feelings about sex?
4. How do they feel about sex without love?
5. What about sex before marriage?
6. What counts as cheating and is cheating forgivable?
7. Have they or would they ever cheat?
8. Are they a virgin?
9. First partner? Most recent?
10. What sort of experience do they have with sex?
11. Do they have any fetishes or fantasies?
12. How comfortable are they with their body?
13. With their partner's body?
14. Who gave them "The Talk"?
15. Do they have any special skills?
16. Post-sex habits? Weird habits? Anything else?

[GEN] SPN!

Sat, 19 Sep 2009 19:00:49 GMT

Soo... rather than beating the shit out of my twitter I shall just update this as things happen!

Has Dean always had that necklace? I shall have to re-watch some season 1 and see!

"When you find God tell him to send legs." oh, bobby!

what happened to the "I can't trust you?" why are we back and forth?!

Wheeeen I die and they lay me to restttt, gonna go to the place that's the beeessssssst! spn music love omfg

where is everyone? a jumpy is coming right? I CAN FEEEL IT

musssstang!!

ELLEN!!!

mmm wet dean

is there a jo?!

oh, that was smart sam. eejit.

o: DON't DOOOO IT. DOOON'T DOOOOO IT. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. ha, bint.

oh, dean, let me love you, i shall make it right

I hope Jo is alive.

ok... confused >.>

do they know?! DO THEY NOT KNOW? HAI JO!

oh, pain stricken dean i love you

haha, thane totally wants a mustang and to be the first horseman of the apocalypse.

oooh I LIKE HIM! HE'S AMAZING. HAHAHA

jello-shots. bwehehehee

NOOOOOOOOO OMGGGGGGGGGGG

:( oh that's kind of sad as much as i dislike him

O.O DEAN! the impala?! ARE YOU FOR REAL?

i didn't think he'd let him go...

omg i want a truck with a house on it!!!

[RP]

Fri, 18 Sep 2009 23:49:41 GMT

So...I'm random but I've set up momentlikethis for like... writing prompts, drabbles and bits and peices and my applications. I'm weird, I know but I like the thought of having it all in one place and using this as a more personal one. Which will likely have MEME's and stuff in it too but w/e. :D Feel free to add momentlikethis if you wanna see my development writing etc. It's f-locked.

♥♥

[RPG] 21 FLAVOURS: Sofia Sanchez 'Baby'.

Fri, 11 Sep 2009 17:30:30 GMT

PROMPT: 21 Flavours: Baby
GAME: The Professors Lounge
TITLE: Pitter Patter.
RATINGS/WARNINGS: R. There's some swearing.
CHARACTER(S): Sofia Sanchez.
PAIRING(S): Sofia Sanchez/Lindon Monroe
SUMMARY: Sofia wants a baby with Lin and broaches the subject.
WORD COUNT: 534.

For once Sofia hesitated on the threshold, hand gripping the door frame as she waited for the right moment - a moment she had been waiting for, for months. Teeth tugged nervously at her lip as she went over what she was about to say, as if she could suddenly find the right words for the conversation which had been formulating in her mind for months. Mentally she'd handled it so many times, turning it over and over as she tried to find the words which would work just right. Nothing seemed to work just right though, nothing seemed to fit the situation. She could just come out and say it - no build-up, nothing subtle just truth and honesty which suits Sofia so well, but would that suit this conversation?

The subject of children had not yet been brought up in the Monroe household - Sofia had, for the most part, held her tongue though her opinion had never been kept from him. Children were a part of her plan, her life agenda and she had no plan of changing that any time soon. Yes, Lindon already had two children but she had not had them. She had not felt them grow inside of her, that little wonder she would hold within her and nurture to a fully grown child. She hadn't yet had the chance to watch her son or daughter grow - first tooth, first words, first steps. There were so many things she had not had the chance to experience, things which had always been on the agenda, part of the plan. There had been that one time they were discussing the girls and he'd mentioned not wanting any more children, a mention she had let lie for that moment as she'd focused on him. Now was the time to bring it back up.

In all honesty Sofia wasn't playing fair right now. The silk slip she had on whispered against her coffee skin, soft and inviting as it kissed the flesh of her thighs, over the top she wore her dark red robe which cuddled against her curves. Not exactly fair, a little too sexy, too dressed up for the conversation she had in mind. For a moment she watched him from the door way, happy to just bathe in the sight of him, memorize how he looked in that moment. Peaceful, serene as he bent over his book. As always Sofia had the urge to kiss, to touch, to whisper love against his skin but for now she had something else in mind.

Slowly she moved, with deliberate slowness and quiet. Hand ghosted over his shoulder, the only hint that she would soon be in his lap, bare legs wriggling into the spot either side of his hips before she was moving in that position. Lin would find her body warm as she melted against him, lips brushing lightly over his jaw before she pulled back. There was quite obviously something on her mind; hands twisted nervously in his shirt, unbuttoning the buttons slowly and without any real purpose as her teeth fretted with her top lip, eyebrows furrowed as she tried to find the right words.

"I've been thinking..."

BONUS
Entirely focused on reading a letter from a top Muggle hotel near his hometown in Greece, coupled with her deliberate silence, he didn't notice her until she touched his shoulder and he almost jumped. Very subtly, sure she didn't notice, he slipped the letter under the book he was supposedly reading, carelessly as if he was done with it. In reality, he wasn't. It was a letter from the hotel saying that his reservations were not secured yet and he'd have to come in person to finalize things. Even though he outwardly looked peaceful and calm, he was ready to burn the paper as start cursing when he felt her touch. Their damned anniversary was in twenty-three days and he did not have time for these issues to come up. However, with her presence came peace, as always. He let out a calming sigh, hiding the parchment - it was to be a surprise - and wrapping his arms loosely around her waist.

His first instinct was to respond to the light kiss on his jaw by curving his neck down and kissing her neck just below the ear, but she moved back before it could be anything more than a light feathery ghost of a kiss. His brow furrowed, curious as her hands moved to his buttons. They were doing the obvious ritual of undressing him before he carried her from his study to their attached master bedroom, but there was no commitment in her movements. She was very lazy about it, distracted. And the "I've been thinking" was not the kind that might start a dialogue about exactly what she was thinking of to get him excited and ready - even though hardly more than a look or a slight touch was ever necessary to get him ready and excited for her.

"Oh?" he prompted, unsure of where his hands should go or what they should be doing, if anything, so he settled on placing them on her hips, thumbs lightly tracing circles against the skin through the thin fabric.

For a moment she allowed that soft sound to linger in the air, hands lifting to ghost against his throat as it vibrated into life. A frown furrowed her brow, darkening her features momentarily as she tried to drag up the words to say what she wanted to say.

"I want a child."

Well there was that way. Simple, to the point, unapologetic in it's simplicity - and, in that fact, something utterly Sofia. The worrying of her hands stopped, nestling neatly within her lap as she finally forced herself to search his eyes out. At that moment in time, Sofia wanted nothing more than a child - or more importantly their child, and to her it was a simple request, a simple admission of desire.

"I want our child."

Of all the things Lindon's beautiful wife could be thinking about and wanting to discuss just then, he had not been expecting that. He certainly wasn't wanting it. His thumbs stopped dead in their tracing and his brow furrowed, lips pursing as he tried to form an answer that would get his point and desires across clearly without upsetting her. The first thing to come out of his mouth was a simple and unintelligent, "No."

That wasn't good enough, and it certainly wasn't fair on her to not give more of an explanation, so he sighed, rubbing the tired creases in his forehead. "Sofia," he began, calling her by her full name like only he was really allowed to do, "what I mean is... Well, still no, but I didn't mean to be so blunt about it." His palm gently caressed her cheek. "I'm thirty-four. I have an eleven-year-old and a nine-year-old. I love you more than my life...but I'm done having children. I'm sorry." With that he chose to end the conversation. He removed his hand from her cheek and rolled the chair back easily, expecting her to climb off and give up. Well, not really expecting the second one. Giving up was not a setting Sofia knew how to operate on very well, but his tone was firm. This was not an issue he was going to budge on.

At that singular word Sofia swore she could hear her heartbreak just a little - she could certainly feel it. Tiny fissures which splintered from nowhere, her heart catching on that simple word. His hand would be batted away, much like her desires for a child and she would untangle herself from him so she could move to stand.

No.

So definite, there were no 'if's or 'maybe's in that word, no 'lets talk about it', 'let's discuss it.' He'd decided for them both, that they would have no children, that she would never be a mother. Hand curled into a fist as she turned from him, the line of her shoulders shaking with barely repressed fury. "I didn't realise that you made all of our decisions." She stressed the word 'our' like it was insult, something spat at him. As he went on to explain she could fester in silence, allowing him his drawn out blithering which only fed the flames.

"I'm not done. Me. I love your girls, you know I do, but they are not mine nor will they ever be," Sofia told him as she turned to face him once more. Her voice was controlled enough, sharp and tingling with hurt but at least she wasn't shouting. "They don't have my nose, or laugh, I cannot look at them and think 'Those two beautiful girls came from me, they have a part of me, I made them.'" Hand lifted to her chest, touching lightly at her heart as if this would stop it shattering at her feet. "What about me? In marrying you did I give up the chance for children? Are you really going to take that from me? Because that is what you're doing and don't tell me not to be dramatic, Lin, because you are. I want to be a mother, I want to see my son or daughter grow up, I want to see the look on papa's face when he sees his grandchild for the first time."

Sofia sighed, a tired, jaded sigh which slipped from her lips as she turned from him. Her agitation was evident in every line of body, the jerky to and fro motions of her hands. She was angry and hurt that he would take this from her.

"If it is you or children...I don't know which I would pick..." It was softly whispered and heavy with tears but the words danced from her lips. What would she pick? Him or a child? She wanted nothing more than their child. To see them mixed into this little being which they can cuddle and hold, help grow up and watch as they stumble through life as they had. She wanted this with him but if he didn't want it with her should she give up him or the child?

Lindon stood up, too, after a moment, his anger rising in time with hers. She didn't know what she would pick? He swore under his breath uncharacteristically. "You don't know? Well, that's rich! Scare me into agreeing to have another child. Not at all manipulative!" The unspoken like Angela hung in the air between them and he paused just long enough for it to hit her. "It's not exactly our decision either if you give me an ultimatum, Sofia. 'Me or another child.' So I should just give in? Give you anything and everything you want out of fear that you'll leave me?"

He hit a fist on the book on his desk. "You are being fucking dramatic, Sofia. It's not fair of you to demand this from me. I'm done having children. Honestly, I'd never wanted to have them when I did, as much as I love my girls. But I was forced then, and I'm not going to be forced now!"

Ok, maybe she was being dramatic however she thinks she was justified in this moment of time. She had always been this way; there were no half measures with Sofia, she was all or nothing. She whirled around at this accusation of manipulation, she wasn't manipulating him; if he didn't want a child with her fine however that didn't mean she had to stick around to watch those dreams falter and die. "Is it fair of you to demand I don't?" She asked him, voice level as she stared at him, voice cold and chilling and her eyes hard at the Angela comment hung in the air.

"At least I brought it up as a fucking discussion for us to have and not just stop taking the potion! I didn't decide it for us like you seem to have. No? Just no? Is that fair to me?" She was frustrated and it showed, hurt at this blatant disregard for her feelings in this matter. How dare he just pick for them! Just decide like this wasn't her life too. So, he'd made a stupid decision which had lead him to having children that didn't mean that should stop her having children. "It isn't my fault that bitch trapped you! It isn't fair for you to take that out on me!" It wasn't really often that Sofia brought up Angela, especially in that manner; she wanted to be the better one of the two, the one who kept things civil and nice because she never wanted to cause problems.

[RP]

Thu, 10 Sep 2009 10:20:26 GMT

I've got like writer's block. It's starting to piss me off because I WANT to write but they're just not coming as easily as usual. :(

[RPG] 21 FLAVOURS: Lucy O'Connor 'Baby.'

Sat, 29 Aug 2009 17:06:04 GMT

PROMPT: 21 Flavours: Baby
GAME: Once Upon a Dream
TITLE: Paper.
RATINGS/WARNINGS: U. None.
CHARACTER(S): Lucy O'Connor.
PAIRING(S): Lucy O'Connor/Jackson O'Connor.
SUMMARY: Lucy realises she wants to try for a baby.
WORD COUNT: 588.

She was elbow-deep in pulpy water when she realised she wanted to try for a child. Some people might think it was a little odd that she figured it out right at that moment, as she scooped brown paper pulp from the bucket to slop messily into the frame she'd made but in some ways it fit. She'd picked the toffee brown for him, the golden little flecks she found in his hair, the scrub of his stubble on his cheeks. It fitted him well. The other bucket was lavender, a soft colour with shining lines of silver glitter through it which Lucy thought fitted herself. With careful, slow motions she merged the two, a layer of the steady brown over which the lavender clung. She mixed themselves together and wondered how their child would look.

Would they have his eyes or hers? whose mouth? or jawline? Would they have her curly her but his toffee colouring? Thoughts of Maddie invaded her, how wonderful it had been to be pregnant with her, creating this child which would come out and be a part of her. She remembered how she used to waddle, and how she didn't even mind the fact she had to get new clothes. She could remember curling up in bed and reading to her or painting on her stomach as if her little girl could see it. Being pregnant had been a wonderful thing and Lucy had enjoyed every moment of it.

As she moved the paper around she was careful, tender as if she was crafting a child for them. Her motions were slow, brushing over the lavender and brown mess of soon to be paper. She took her time, pressing it so the lavender hues hugged the brown, a sign of her love for him. It was funny how the simplest of things, in this case paper making, could take on new meanings so easily.

With practiced motions she pushed the newly formed paper out, squeezing away the water as she did so. It didn't take her long to make more, to press the colours together, to lace each sheet with love and adoration her thoughts on her mishmash of a family and what the future could hold.

Muscles ached when she finally retreated in doors and to him. She was messy, her hair escaping from her bun, dried bits of paper on her arms and even across her cheek but she didn't care. Right now all she wanted to do was talk to him. The wet apron she wore was dropped on the kitchen counter as she passed through to the living room, pausing in the door way to watch him quietly for a handful of heartbeats. She wanted to touch, to kiss along the line of his jaw, to replace the book in his hands with herself and it amused her how much of a teenager he made her feel.

The book was taken from his hands, the page carefully marked as she set it aside to make herself comfortable on his lap. She was tiny against him, her body delicate as she nestled into his chest. Fingertips traced the line of his jaw, the lick of stuble and he watched her with dancing eyes. He kissed her fingertips as they passed over his lips, making her smile.

"I want to try for a baby."

There was no build up, no easing into the idea she just whispered it lightly into the inches between them, into the quiet intimacy they shared.

[RPG]

Tue, 25 Aug 2009 19:22:39 GMT

If you were Rachel McAdams and then suddenly you were a boy whose face would you have?

Or Katherine Heigl. I'm not 100% who I want to use.

:D

[RPG] 21 FLAVOURS: Cal Harwood 'Crushed.' Bonus!

Tue, 25 Aug 2009 17:53:46 GMT

PROMPT: 21 Flavours: CRUSHED (bonus!)
GAME: Life, or something like it.
TITLE: Perfectly Ordinary.
RATINGS/WARNINGS: U.
CHARACTER(S): Cal Harwood.
PAIRING(S): Cal Harwood/Jules Stanek
SUMMARY: Cal proposes.
WORD COUNT: 449.

Most people don't understand them. He got it perfectly, he knew why. Cal didn't take her shit, he didn't let her act like some diva model, get her way because of who she was and he would happily, almost eagerly, call her out on things. That was why they worked so well. Oh, it often infuriated her but that only meant she cared. Jules would know that no matter how much they went through, no matter how many times he ended up screaming at her for acting like a child he would always, always be there when she needed him and vice verse. They kept each other sane.

The moment had started off as perfectly ordinary. Baking cookies or cake, by now he couldn't remember which one they had wanted. The argument had begun when she said it was two cups of flour and he said three, perhaps just to annoy her. He liked to see how irate she would get over simple flour, how she would flush with anger, blonde curls escaping the perfect bun she'd done that morning. That was when the first cup of flour had gone over her head. Jules spluttered and gasped, eyes wide with horror as the white powder had exploded over her designer something or other. Cal couldn't tell you a Priwitch from a Gucci and didn't care to.

She'd screamed and he'd laughed. Hand hugging his stomach as he doubled, choking back the gaffs as she stamped her feet. The flour exploded on his back, sending clouds of white around the kitchen. Egg came next, cracking over her blonde hair and when he flicked it from her cheek and stole a kiss it brought a laugh from them. A few second past and they were soon ducking behind the island with ingredients ready to follow. The fight had turned to giggles, with flour, eggs and milk everywhere.

Cal slipped around the island, tackling her to the floor in a fit of brilliant laughter which wrapped their apartment up in light. His hands skimmed up her top, tugging her against him as his laughing lips found her own. Stubble-licked cheek rubbed over hers, smearing the mixture against her and making her squeal.

"Marry me," he whispered in her ear, his voice quiet but steady and sure. There was no doubt in this moment. Covered in flour and egg, milk and god knows what and she was still beautiful to him. Her hair was a mess, her clothing in disarray and she smelt a bit odd, but he knew without a doubt that he loved her and every bit of him wanted her for the rest of his life. Flour and all. "Marry me."

---

It should probably stop amazing Jules how much like a child Cal could be, but it never did. As always, she found herself squealing and screaming in shock and horror as he started, of all things, a food fight. Flour was over her head and she coughed, a scream of rage escaping as she stomped about with arms waving as she tried to clear the air so she could breath. The man was laughing! He was bent over laughing his ass off! Grabbing the bag of flour from the counter, it was emptied over his back and he instantly retaliated with an egg. Before her next scream could escape her lips, he'd stolen a kiss and suddenly her anger dissolved away and she decided to be a child just for a little while, too.

It wasn't long before they were slipping into the new layer of grime and he was laying over her. He pulled her close like that and, honestly, the first thing that popped into her mind was not of the mess her kitchen - or even her outfit - was. It was that they were going to need a shower and she was not going to complain about a shower with Cal. What he said was nothing to do with that. Really, she didn't even hear him the first time he said it. She was still laughing, running her fingers through her hair to scrape out a little of the egg, but then he repeated himself, so calmly, confidently, and her smile slid from her face like the egg from her fingers. She felt as though she couldn't breath for a moment, and clumsily she stumbled to her feet. "Cal… Cal, I can't… I'm not ready for that…" Oh, God.

It took Cal a long moment to realise that what Jules was saying was no. No? Cal frowned, the laughter of only moments ago vanishing as she stood, leaving him on the floor. No. Cal didn't know what to think or feel, it was like the world had been turned off and he was just numb.

Wasn't ready wasn't a no, it was more of a not right now but that didn't make it any better, didn't make him feel any better. Feeling came rushing back in a twist of agony which hit him square in the chest. No. She was saying no. Maybe his proposal hadn't been the most romantic, hadn't been the most daring and unique and hadn't exactly been planned but... he hadn't expected her to say no.

Slowly he stood and he felt the weight of her decision settle on him like the weight of world. He didn't look at her - couldn't look at her. Instead he leant against the counter, large hands pillowed against the edge of worktop as he tried to work through it all. He'd been thinking of asking her for a month or so, going over it in his mind - it was quick, they'd been together for a year but he loved her and he couldn't imagine his life without her. He thought she'd felt the same.

Finally he nodded, hand scrubbing over his jaw and he moved. "Fine," he stated simply grabbing his jacket as he went for the door, he couldn't be here right now, couldn't look at her.

[RPG] 21 FLAVOURS: Beth Forrester 'Happy,'

Mon, 24 Aug 2009 22:00:27 GMT

PROMPT: 21 Flavours: Happy
GAME: Once Upon a Dream
TITLE: Dazzled.
RATINGS/WARNINGS: U. A twilight reference? Does that need a warning?
CHARACTER(S): Beth Forrester.
PAIRING(S): Beth Forrester/NPC!
SUMMARY: She goes roller-skating and quite literally bumps into someone.
WORD COUNT: 568.

Being blind meant that most things should be out of the question however if Beth had found out one thing during her life time it is this: her friends and family are awesome. She could not ask for better, she could not ask for more. If she wanted to do something she would because they made sure to find a way. So, when she had impulsively mentioned roller-skating she hadn't expected anything to come of it; especially not a group outing. Yet, here they all were. A bunch of them laughing as they attempted to skate, shrieks of glee and shock as they fell or took off. Beth's first time had been...interesting, she'd wobbled like a new born colt until she'd been rushed and pillowed which had ultimately ended up in a pile of them on the floor, giggling with limbs akimbo. Beth loved it.

While she had yet to actually skate on her own she was enjoying the easy terror when she was allowed to just hold someone's hand, the little wobbly fear like going on a roller-coaster and nearing the drop. She was giggling, flushed with excitement when she fell into him. It knocked her off balance, her legs wobbling in protest as one skate went left and the other right.

Without thinking she grasped, clutching on even as she laughed. Eyes squeezed shut as she buried her face in the chest of whomever she'd bumped into assuming it would be one of the group, a giggling fit easily on her slipping heels.

"Whoa, there, you alright?" That wasn't a voice she knew and Beth was instantly attempting to push away, a little alarmed even as she fell yet again. He caught her, hands strong against her arms, laughing quietly at her.

"I'm fine, it was all a ploy to get you to hold me," she told him lightly, a smile flicking on her lips. She wondered briefly what he looked like and her fingers inched to explore but she'd learnt long ago that some people didn't enjoy randomly being touched by blind chicks. She didn't dare move, worried her skates would take her for another ride. "Knight in borrowed roller-skates and all that."

"Yeah? I thought girls were all into independence and equality these days?"

"Nah, chicks dig getting saved. It's something about manly men and I don't know...swords," there was a hint of teasing sarcasm, a tickle of innuendo to her tone as her lips quirked into a smirk. That drew a spluttering laugh from the mystery man and she gave him another grin, even if it was directed to his chest which was kind of head height and thus where she was staring.

There was that moment of awkwardness, Beth unsure what to do with someone who wasn't aware that she couldn't see and him holding onto a strange girl just in case she fell on her arse again.

"Are you staring at my tits?"

"You do only want me for my sword."

"Good point," she conceded after a moment. "Do you think you could wheel me over... ok, to the wall please whichever direction that is."

"You don't know?"

"Well, no, I'm blind."

"Did I dazzle you?"

"Was that a twilight reference?"

There was a pause, before he laughed. "You're as clumsy as Bella."

[RPG] I'm a PIMP MOFO, BITCH!

Sat, 22 Aug 2009 11:14:02 GMT

As everyone and their mother is pimping at the moment...

riseofsin via riseofsinmod

This is one of mine so it HAS to go first, obviously. A lot of hard work from all of our players has gone into RoS and I love them all for it. It's supernatural, based in the future and basically we're on the cusp of a weird war between BAD/KINDOFBAD/GOOD and I love it!

We need to fill in some more board members on the Elari, the Raidan need more members and possibly a few more leaders? Oh, and totally some kids for the board members and higher-up families, please? :D The Watch...could do with some members, the priest who owns the church and a medic of some sort?

Personally: I would love to see blackvelvet's son! Who...had some sort of weird relationship with bastardson because apparently Thane just goes for Madore's. I'd really love to see the last two Elari board spots actually filled by family-esque roles! People for the Watch! protecting's brother who was bitten by a vampire a few years ago.

onceuponadream via onceuponamodly

OUAD is love <3 I'm really enjoying myself and everyone is fantastic there! :D LOVE IT! And I get to play Sofi again which is AWESOME sauce as I love her.

I would like to see oflove's husband! That'd be amazing, please? And...I actually think that is it currently... :D

galimatias via lusory

Is another one by me however unlike RoS it's a lot more laid back. It's just, just opened and is going to be a lot of fun when it picks up. LOSLI 2.0. No character limits, no update limits, laid back and really just a "do what suits you" kind of game.

I would love to see thewildone's accidental husband (she was travelling, they went to Vegas, they got married, she ran away home!) as she's pregnant so...that'll be interesting. She also needs her big brother, who is gay, and they've not seen for a long time. That'd be awesome in game, pleaaase? I can offer a BF for the brother too if anyone wants? :D I'd love to do a slashy relationship, so long as it isn't horribly campy >.>

Then middleone needs his little brother and his three band mates (band is currently unnamed and is something which will be growing in game. All four boys are meant to be BFF, they have a flat together and the band is something they've started over and over again) he also needs a co-host on his radio show!

biggestvictoire would like some hot healers at the local healers she's currently in training at. Love for someone who she can crush on and be a muppet with! :D It'd be funny. ALSO Dominique and Luis too please?

There are also wanted posts here!

wished via wishedmod

Another fantastic game which is finding it's legs and promises to be fun! It's an AU seventh year in which Draco returns from the future. Everyone is really great over there and it's fantastic!

[MEME]

Sat, 08 Aug 2009 20:41:07 GMT

The Rated-R Meme. Comment with a character of mine, and I'll give you three random bits of trivia about their sexual practices, preferences, experiences, fantasies, kinks, or something along those lines. Feel free to mention multiple characters or a character multiple times. Present games only, please!

[GEN] Music meme!

Wed, 22 Jul 2009 13:59:56 GMT

Another meme from me! :D Two in one day. OMFG!

My friends see me as: Tell Me (P.A.C) - Story of the year.
My make-out song is: The night before (life goes on) - Carrie Underwood.
My day will be like: Cry - James Blunt. Nice!
I’ll have a good day if I can just hear: Vulnerable - The Saturdays.
Next time I’m in front of a crowd, I’ll say: My Generation - Greenday.
My message to the world has always been: Turn Twist - Jimmy Eat World
Somewhere in my wedding vows, I will include: Forgotten - Avril Lavigne.
My best friend is like: This Love - The Veronicas
My alter-ego is: Disappear - Hinder
Right now, I feel: Stay with me - Finch
My innermost desire is: Transitory - After Ever
What makes me happy is: The End - Simple Plan
My birth was like: Are you the Rabbit? - Marily Manson. No, I'm the bear!
My theme song: One of those Girls - Avril Lavigne
My deepest secret is: Swallowed - Alexz Johnson (...?)
If I reached the top of Mount Everest, what I would scream: Desensitised - Greenday
My favourite thing to do is: Ex Machina - A skylight drive.
The story of my life is: Broken Lungs - Thrice
At my funeral they’ll play: You can't see the forest for the wolves - Funeral for a Friend.
When I’m drunk I say: The Grouch - Greenday. What is with all the greenday?! HATE THEM.
Behind my back, my friends think I’m: The Night - Disturbed.
If I got lost on a desert island, I would yell: Reverie - Brooke Fraser. Probably not.
When I’m in the shower, I sing: Stay - Shakespear Sisters.
My love of life was inspired by the song: Screamager - Therapy?
Highschool was like: Ice Queen - Within Temptation.
My family is described by the song: Prelude: Call of the ghost tigers - Tiger Army.
How will you die?: Say it right - Nelly Furtado.
To cheer myself up I: Take Care - A Change of Pace.