she rules desire, by force of fire, this violent mind

The January blues are getting to me I think. I'm feeling self pitying and... alone and very silly things are setting me off, little things which are kind of spiralling into one big thing which is just making me feel like shit. What's worse is that I can't say what I want to say because it's all my fucking fault and i'm really fucking sorry.

I don't have many friends, ok make that like single figures, but I'm having to tell my best friend that he needs to talk to his 'boyfriend' because said 'boyfriend' doesn't think they're going out and is apparently 'in love' with someone else. In love after a month. A month. Is that even possible? I understand deep connections but love? love.

ERGH.

Sometimes I really, really hate my life.

I'm not sure how many of you will check LOSLI again so I just want to post it here too. It is officially closed and I would like to ask you all to run the friend removal.

I would also like to say sorry about it all. Also, thank you for making LOSLI wonderful.

"You can either despair that the rose bush has thorns, or you can rejoice that the thorn bush has roses."

I'm considering dropping two characters who I love just because people who SHOULD interact with them in game don't at all. What is the fucking point of keeping a character going if people don't even fucking bother.

Cliques piss me off. IF YOU ONLY WANT TO PLAY WITH CERTAIN FUCKING CHARACTERS HAVE A FUCKING PSL!